I really don't know what to do, the more and more I study about the liturgy, the more I pray about it, I'm more and more having an aversion to the New Mass. I'm almost ready to give up on it and throw in the towel.
I don't blame you. I have been to only three since the new translation, all of them in the last two weeks because I was substituting at a Catholic school.
That turned out to be a slight cosmetic change for me, really. You are going to have banal liturgy with no discipline behind it when you construct by a committee that is opposed to Catholic tradition, and often theology, and make drastic changes. Sadly the popes did not heed the majority of bishops, several of whom explicitly made a point of how any change erodes discipline and hence must be justified as greater than any harm.
The Church has approved it, yes, hence it isn't heretical or essentially deficient in itself. But it has been a disaster and directly contributes to its own abuse, because again any change weakens discipline. The problem is we had liberals change the liturgy who misunderstand human nature and therefore deny the role of tradition in enforcing discipline (heck Rome explicitly encouraged all sorts of experiments with the liturgy, explicitly encouraged creativity and all those abuses we now hate, such as a lay person walking up and taking communion from the ciborium himself, and other things that are shocking to read that Rome actually started before condemning).
You can do what I do when it becomes a distraction
1) do not look at other people, especially at communion time
2.) If you cannot pay attention with profit, quietly pray the rosary and unite your intentions to the Mass